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Don’t trust the bitch ii.12

Some more notes on fantasies

Chloe’s beloved Australian is returning to America. He is shooting a commercial with James. They’re advertising shades for Japanese people in a bathroom. The slogan is – a restroom for your eyes. Presumably, that is a comment on advertising. The man is persuasive: Now Chloe takes him on a tour of NYC restrooms, to have sex. Also, the crew believe his cant, bathrooms are sexy. They willingly obey him. Nobody asks: Shades in a bathroom?

We were once golden gods, James tells Chloe, when they realize they both have been conquered by this man, effortlessly. James cannot be adored by the crew – his immediate audience – because the director is far more attractive. Chloe has moved this man to the top of her rotation, whereas she is not the top of his rotation. James has to work for a living & so must suffer; Chloe quickly has the foreigner deported.

But Chloe has to face the facts. Having lived her life causing jealousy in others, she is not used to being jealous herself. It would cause self-contempt in her – wanting what one cannot acquire is contemptible. When she finally talks with him, he reproaches her, she might have said something, she didn’t have to ruin his career. Well, he should have been more worshipful in her presence… The country is not big enough for two irresistible beloveds.

June spends her useless time trying to persuade Chloe to marry this man. She is not the hopeful idealist of yesteryear anymore, so she just calls it exclusive dating. Women learn to expect less, as disappointments mount… Chloe wants to add to the mountain of disappointments, so she flies June to Indiana to see this guy she keeps yapping about – some obsession from junior high, a rather boring man of no distinction.

The disappointment reminds June how much she loves Chloe – but Chloe is not looking for another sexual slave – because she stands for everything that New York has to offer. Mankind might be forgiven for believing that Chloe stands for everything that New York takes from mankind. But it may be said in Chloe’s defense, New York makes willing slaves of its slaves, including June.

It is surprising to see how much Chloe depends for her votaries on continuous attacks on everything for which June believes she stands, or used to believe she stood. Her ability to get alien residents deported for no reason recalls the US Constitution. But Chloe is not America. She may be what the people want, though. Her understanding of great experiences demotes greatness to democratic levels – looking at pleasure as sex inevitably does. But her refusal to commit to any beloved is also a refusal to love democracy.