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Don’t trust the bitch ii.1

On memory & happiness

James yearly receives a letter from the rest of the cast of Dawson’s Creek, in which they politely beg him to do a reunion show. A decade has passed since the show’s finale. The anniversary of the end is usually a pleasant memory for James – he can treasure the thought of crushing their dreams, of his power to refuse to return to adoration. He has been forgotten & must exact revenge… He knows his worth by what he can prevent from happening.

Humorously, James compares himself to Lennon, who was killed ten years after the Beatles self-destructed. This is a parody of a tragedy. Needless to say, in awful bad taste. At the end of the story, James will receive a Viking’s funeral. Admittedly, it’s only his Dawson memorabilia that burns up, but that may be all of him.

Some of these stories imitate the detective story – they start with the denouement, then go back & work their way to it, driven by necessity. Comic plots, of course, must be very strongly woven. Humor replaces suspense. Both are tied up with a crime or a transgression.

June & Chloe clash again, June loses again, Chloe must learn to give the Junes of this world some credit again. June is all for the reunion, because, she says, that show was religion in Indiana. She soon realizes she did not grow up to be happy like on Dawson’s Creek, but that all her friends are far more successful, & that they have replaced those dreams by others. If June were not a failure, she’d never give Chloe the time of day. But June is a believer…

Chloe says you should leave your past behind – let it explode, walk away in slow motion, without looking back, like in a John Woo movie. Her mockery of heroism, like John Woo’s heroes, shoots with both pistols. It takes heroism to abandon things which you call your own, because it means being alone, aloof, at risk of losing yourself, or of ending up being no one. & heroism is always tied to the past: Holding on to the past is trying to prevent it from exploding. The past is inevitably connected with tragedy & tending towards the origins always leads to tragedy.

Is Chloe immortal? While ambitions are unfulfilled, she has some space in which to live. While ordered Enlightenment has not made man immortal, Chloe might be immortal. She tells June, failure is preferable to success: It leaves your story as yet unwritten. Freedom is the freedom to start over, as if seeing things is seeing them for the first time. This is the fundamental superiority of comedy over tragedy.